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I've moved. I've added the people I felt like I should keep (if we're friends though and I've missed on adding you, tell me, please!), so, to the rest: it was nice knowing you. No hard feelings, right? (: Have a nice life. Everyone who I've added, though, please add me back, mmkay?

I'm here! Kind of. It's three more weeks until the end of the schoolyear and I have to 頑張ります. I'm doing pretty neutral right now.
I visited Turkey in the middle of May and had a really great time. There's a few pictures under the cut in the end of the entry, if anyone's interested.
I'm still failing my grades, combined with getting A's. I'm pretty awesome like that, I guess.
I also, acidentally, dyed my hair black, so I look all kinds of emo right now.
Other than that, it's going pretty lame. :| I don't know, I'm still on hiatus, I'll read some of your guys' entries now, but IDK if I comment. Sorry. :( I'll make sure to be back to the end of July.
Also, Kiko, I ordered the stuff, but with a little delay, as, as you've noticed, I've been pretty busy. Sorry, dear. I hope it gets settled soon. ^^
Ah, so, photos. ( You can find them here. Though most of them are not of me. )

I'm currently pretty much failing school, so...

1 MONTH HIATUS!

I promise I'll be back. If you want to ask me something or tell me something, comment me here, I'll read my comments.
PS: Kiko, have you gotten my money? :O
Anyway, that's it from me for now. Oh, also AKB48's lyrics scare the crap out of me. Have a nice 1 month. ^^

Hello. お久しぶりですね！Haven't really written here in a while, I hope you missed me.
I've had a Spring break, tried enjoying it without my computer. I've been watching a lot of burned CDs with movies, hung out with friends and studied a lot. I had a 日本語弁論大会, I have no idea how you call it in english, two days ago, so I had to prepare for it. Now, that's a long, sad and funny story. On the first round, there were 4 students from my school, chosen to represent it on it. I was one of them, placed on 3rd place. Hence, I pretty much decided I'll fail, my self esteem about talking japanese went pretty low. I did, however practice a lot, but did not really hope for a place at the real thing. I even had problems with my teachers, who thought I wouldn't succeed. But on Saturday, when I went out and said my speech, the whole audience started talking how good I was, my teachers were shocked. So, I guess, I just started thinking that, maybe, I have luck to win the first place (everyone thought I'd win). Long story short, though, I didn't. A classmate did, I was second and a third classmate of mine was 3rd. Good thing is my school was competing agains the Sofia university and we beat them. Bad thing is, I failed against the girl I'm pretty much... fighting against. She always tries to prove she's better than me. You see, I may not be like her and don't really care if someone's better, but I don't let people prove me they're better. They only make me want to be stornger with their actions.
2nd place is 2nd place, I hope my teachers are happy with me. The other thing now is- we now have to write a １６００字 speech, for we can (one of the whole Bulgaria) win a one-month homestay for Japan. It's in 2008 and you have to pay your ticket (800lv., around 400euro.). I don't know if I want to try it. I don't really want to let people from my class get my dream away from me, but on second though, next year there's an interview for 6 months in Japan and I think I'm the one who's most likely to win (well, two people from this year's judges told me so). Those 6 months will probably be from July to December and the homestay is from July to August, so... IDK. I hate my japanese school class and its whole stupid teasing system. Good thing is, two of my friends are going to Japan this year- one for a month and the other for two weeks, and they'll both get me something nice. What do you think is a nice souvenir one can get in Japan? Tokyo, let's say, they'll go there for sure. lol, they asked me to tell them what I want. :D So it's all good.
Other than that... I'm going to a picnic this Saturday with my friends. YAY, NATURE WALK AND PICNIC, I'm totally loving it. I want to feel happy, free and peaceful after so many weeks of stressing and stressing. I still have school and a lot of grades for fixing (from 5 to 6, 6 being the highest and 2 being the lowest), but it's going to be all fine. I'm going to travel to Greece in two weeks and it's going to be all great!
Now, a few photos from me, if you've forgotten how I look.

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My BitCommet sucks. :| It won't let me download anything. It freezes on every 3 or so MB I've downloaded and I have to close it and start it again. That is why I still haven't watched Gekiranger and everyone spazzing over Mele isn't helping me. I WANT TO WATCH IT NOW! *goes off to download it from some community here that had it*

EDIT: YES, YES, THE NEW EPISODE WAS THE SHIT! Mele so owns my soul.

QUESTION, before I forget is, do you have any idea where I can order Sex Pot stuff. I want a t-shirt (because all the t-shirts they sell here are boring) and I have no idea where to get it. Does the OHP have an option for ordering overseas? I'm too lazy to check :|
Last night, I was thinking about last year- who I hung out with, what I listened, how I dressed and I somehow missed it. I used to care less about the ''true meaning of life'' and what I was doing, it was so much more fun and so much easier. Now I'm constantly feeling down and I just want it all ''to end''... or something. I swear, I'm not emo. D:
It's Spring Break here and what do I intend to do? STUDY D: My japanese teacher talked to me yesterday about how she felt I was giving up. Pretty much, this made me realize I'm a tuff bitch- she thinks I'm giving up, I'll make her eat her socks when I succeed. That's how I am, sue me! Actually I was rather giving up- I saw no hope in what I was doing, I knew I was going to be beaten and overall, I was pretty tired and annoyed. But, I guess, now I have new power to kick ass. AND KICK HARD!
I'm going out with my friends now. Shopping, haha, I'm such a typical girl. I might write how it went afterwards, if I don't get back too lazy to write anything and just sit down and read Never Ending Story (one of my favorite books, along with Alice in Wonderland).

UGH, DEN-O EPISODE 9, STOP BEING AN ASS AND DOWNLOAD! D: (Note to self: Ask Stoyana if she was able to download it.)
And I bought this for a friend:

\:D/ Why am I the only one of my friends who likes buying stuff to the others and making them happy?

Eleven days- no update for me. Not a record or anything, but it's all good, it's all good. I'm not a good ljer. My life is pretty normal and boring, so nothing worth sharing is happening. I'm- pretty much still in love, pretty much still failing school, pretty much still a geek.
Talking about being a geek, I'm obsessed over 仮面ライダー電王, because, well, it's awesome. I don't have the excuse of the fandom as I had it with ゲキレンジャー (which, though, is pretty awesome too 8-D), so I have to be honest and say yes, I find a kid's show amazing, stfu!.
Talking about fandom... WHY DO YOU INSIST ON MAKING ME SO BROKE, D-BOYS, WHY? A while back I did preorder both Zukkii and Araki's DVDs and also Araki's photobook (too poor to buy Zukkii's too), but...



This happened. So now my total spent on DVDs and photobooks is €95 and my dad kind of hates me. :| Is it my fault I have no credit card for myself? (... ok, not nice idea, if I had a credit card all for myself, I'd be broke 24/7)
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Other than that, there's really nothing fun happening in my life. Currently my stomach hurts like Hell and I have a maths homework to write. >>
I want to try and update more often, so I'm going to do it. ... I hope. God, I'm so bad at ljing, I'm always saying it, I know, but it's so. And I'm always afraid of getting cut. Because I'm some stupid stalker that reads and comments so rarely. And when I comment, I suck at keeping a conversation alive- I post a comment and forget to see if anyone replied back. XD *kicked*
Anyway, I'm off now. Have a nice day, guys!

EDIT: WTF, new Tenimyu music is SUCH CRAP :|||| There's not a single song that got me hooked. I mean, the previous musical's music wasn't all that great either, but this is total and complete CRAP! D:<
I want to watch it, though, I want to see Tomo act.

I am officially in love and I hate it. This whole *dokidoki* feeling and being overly too silly and happy for no reason; getting sad every time someone mentions him maybe having a girlfriend and all. jgl;ljd I haven't been in love for ages and this feel so weird to me. What's silly is- I'm 17 and I'm too shy to even talk to him. WTF? Kids age 14 already have had sex 38484848 times and I can't even talk to the boy I like. *dies*
Other than that, I am doing quite fine. I got chosen to go to the second round of 弁論大会 to represent my school along with three other classmates. I actually wish I wasn't chosen- that way I could have had more free time. XD Now I have more and more exersises and it's going to kill me. Talking about japanese (when do I not?) our new japanese teacher is called Wada先生 and I'm pretty tempted to ask her if she has any relative called Masato. *kicked* She seems like a nice person, though she is pretty quiet and lost-looking. I want to see what her teaching methods are, but I don't really want to start learning with her- this means my class teacher would already be gone to Japan. I'll miss this woman so much, she's just too nice. She's 24 and watches japanese dramas, which makes her kind of awesome, even if I don't really like SMAP (she fangirls them along with my other japanese teachers).
I'm invited, along with everyone else who took part in the 弁論大会 to Mitsui先生's (GOD, I HATE TYPING ''SENSEI'' IN ROMAJI, OKAY?) house this Saturday. We're having a party or something of the like. I always like those- they're really fun and we get to drink all the tea we want. *a bit too tea-obsessed*
Downloaded SHOWTA.'s first single today and God, why is this boy's music so pretty? I haven't been listening to any pop lately, japanese at least, but this is too pretty not to listen to. Better than his second single, actually. You should all download it (OR BUY IT!, if you're not pirates like me...). If anyone wants me to upload it for you, just say so.
Bought the cutest pair of flats today, also went to finally get my Patrick Wolf CD from the store.
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I feel like fangirling, only I have no idea what. I'd fangirl Araki's photos he posted in his blog, but he needs a haircut so bad (GOD, HIS HAIR LOOKS SO DEAD LATELY!!!), I don't really feel like doing it. I'm not talking to my best friend (don't ask why, I'm we're just being silly), so I have no one to talk stupid stuff to. >>
Anyway, that's all for now. I'll go comment on some of your entries, because I haven't done so in ages. >>

Trying to fight with YesAsia is hard. How on Hell do you explain the stupid thing that, no, there are no provinces in Bulgaria? I have no idea, I just hope I don't fuck something up, since it's the first time I'll ever be ordering (in my case, pre-ordering) something from there. Yes, that is indeed how lame I am.

*random useless update*

Those past coulpe of weeks, I've had the worst time of my life. I'm a pretty much positive, happy person who likes and tries seeing the best in life, the beauty of everything; BUT I just can't really take it anymore. I feel like I'm on autopilot and I can't stop.

Everyday I get home no sooner than 4 (and I go out at about 7), I cook myslef something easy and sit down to write my homework. Which is pretty much killing me. My creativity has been down to -10 (from around 5 or so, if we count our creativity level on 10). I do, for example, read a lot, still, but sometimes I don't really feel like reading.
I really have no idea, I don't feel like doing anything.

I'm currently reading Battle Royale and, wow, I'm really enjoying it; though I've been having nightmares those past few days. I loved the movie sincever I saw it a few years ago, so I was really happy when I got my hands on the book. BUT still it depresses me. The movie kind of depresses me everytime I see it, but it's for no longer than an hour or so. The book, though, is different. I'll probably be reading it for a week or so more, I don't think I'll stand being under such pressure 24/7. :S It's really interesting though, so I'll keep torturing my brain. *kicked*

I have 弁論大会 on Monday, so wish me luck, please. Also chemistry test of Tuesday. >> God, I hate chemistry. Though I'm proud I did really well on my maths test. I've been having it bad in maths lately.

This update still looks more positive than it should be D:

No maths tomorrow \:D/

And TsuShiMaMiRe freaks me out, for God knows what reason. I'm off to watch God's Left Hand, Devil's Right Hand. Will post some random pictures later.

Dear flist,
I just thought I looked cute today. D:


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lol, I am not male.

And I need to dye my hair.

When was the last time I updated? D: Why do I even keep an LJ? Oh, for friends, right!
Yesterday we got our にほんご能力試験 results. Yours trully pwned everyone, yet again. 393/400! I believe that's a record for a student from my school and all the uppergraders felt jealous. XD lol I don't know, I don't think I'm too proud of myself for that, because I don't see how the fact that I passed a level up is going to help me through life. Maybe when next year I go to the interview for Japan, I'll tell it to the teachers? I have no idea.
Talking about teachers, Kawai Sensei keeps complaining how my japanese is ''良くスゴイだけど．．''. She believes I talk like a young japanese man. I always start giggling when she tells me that. Too many movies, backstage stuff, interviews with male actors/musicians, I guess. I don't know, the thing is, seemingly, my japanese is bad and not polite though. I use a lot of ''そう、そう、そう！'' or ''分からない・知らない''. Kawai Sensei keeps telling me to use the です・ます forms. I'm really dying over it.
Every girl, and I do mean every, in my class is currently watching/obsessing over 花より男子 (Hanadan). I maybe wouldn't have such a bad eye for the series, if it wasn't so overrated and not everyone talked about it. Fine, maybe it's good. Fine, maybe it's romantic. But it's by far not the best thing ever. I keep getting pissed off, especially at those people who think Matsuda Shota is way better than his brother (Matsuda Ryuhei).
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My classmates all judge from the looks (and, hey, Ryuhei is a pretty goodlooking young man, I can tell). They've never seen Shota in anything else than Hanadan, but they still think he's a great actor. They've never actually seen Ryuhei play. WHAT THE HELL! Maybe I'm just biased, because Ryuhei is one of my favorite asian actors, but, then again, what is so special about that one-day-famous Matsuda Shota?
(Uh, sorry, ranted a bit. Everyone who likes Shota, excuse me, I'm just saying my opinion.)
I had the most fun in computer class today. My boy classmates made me show them Gekiranger and half of them fell for Hirata Yuka. XD I had to show them all those pictures of her from google that aren't really, well, suited for class. Thankfully, our teacher just thought she was a cute girl and joked about if they like the girl or her body. My computer teacher's really fun.
My father is being an ass to me, my mother wouldn't lend me money and my family life is so happy right now. XD But I couldn't care less. Well, except for the parent meeting today, at school. I've had it pretty bad, with the exeption of japanese, so... PRAY FOR ME!
Overall, that's it for now. I'll update soon, don't know when, though. ^^ Have a nice day.

I haven't written here in ages, or what feels like ages. A lot of stuff happened, I guess, but I don't really feel like talking about it D: Mainly: I didn't get chosen for the japanese stipend this year, but everyone was impressed, so our main japanese teacher (whom we love so much, because he's really awesome) told me next year they'll send me for half an year to Japan. lol, I feel so proud of myself. I also had a birthday a few days ago (Saturday?), thank you everyone who wished me happy birthday on here. :) For my birthday, I didn't really get a lot of stuff, mainly money, little special things from my friends and class teacher (I will miss her so much when she goes to Japan this summer >>).



LOOK, I'M A PANDA! *kicked* Now, tell me, what would you do if you friend tells you ''Pretend to be a panda!''? I did a gay face ;D
Anyway, that was pretty random and stupid.
How are you lately? Share something important that happened to you! Sorry for no comments, as I usually say. :( Please to not cut me, all those who are doing f-cuts.
I'm having difficulties getting my accent right when reading my japanese essay. Kill me, but I can't say 信じなければならないということ；　成功して；　目標が；　目的を　＆　できませんか？. Why do I fail so much? D: Or then, is it Mitsui先生 the one who just expects me to have too perfect japanese accent? I don't know. BUT BUT BUT! Mitsui先生, our new japanese teacher, is just too cute. I think she is 23 or so, maybe younger. And she trully has the cutest style ever- simple, yet cute.
Meeeh, me= 死ね 死ね 死ね 死ね 死ね 死ね. Too lazy to study my prononciation (wtf, spelling?), too annoyed to do it. You really need to see me when I face Mitsui先生. It's so hard to keep smiling and repeat (and repeat, and repeat), when all you want to do is slam your fists agains the table and, maybe, cry at how much you fail. God, I hate failing, I hate it so much. But then again, I'm human, so I do it.
On a random note, I'm amused by this girl on a bulgarian forum- she keeps writing in all the topics, only mentioning facts about the movie (like who did the themesong & etc, etc), pretending to be awesome and all knowing. Yet, I guess she knows nothing, because I (and other people) found about five mistakes in her information. Maybe she is one of those people who believe all rumors and post them? I have no idea, I told you this was random.



HOW ON EARTH DO YOU DO THIS? D: I mean, it's such a cool phone. Alice? I want to do something like this, yet I can't figure out how the dude did it. :(
Also, 獣拳戦隊ゲキレンジャー is effin' awesome! I know only one person on my flist watches it, so I'm not going to ramble about it (besides, the first episode was aired on Sunday, so that'd be a late ramble). You know, whoever wants to do it, can watch it here. The result I got when I showed it to my classmates in computer-technology-whatever class was: I got two people hooked (and one of them fangirls Zukkii, so... >>), one thought it was okay, the boys thought it was insane/scary, the other girls though I was insane for watching something like that. Well, whatever floats their boat, I guess.
Ew at the update, so I'm ending it here. Have a nice day, guys!

EDIT: OH, OH, GOGOL BORDELLO ARE SO AWESOME!!!, why didn't anyone tell me about them sooner? D:

・ ''КЕФЕР цветовете на малката Ида'' is probably the scariest book I've ever read. It has nothing to do with horror, it actually is a fairytale, yet I can't help myself and shiver over some parts.
・ MIKA is great. (thank you sexualmasochism for sharing his album) You all should give him a listen. (Want me to upload it for you?)
・ The trend called vintage has caught me too. I'm currently obsessing over gold (or everything non-silver), weird necklaces and brown clothes. WHUT? D: I don't even get why I like it, but I just believe it's nice looking and pretty easy to dress in.
・ I finally got my blue hairdye.♥
・ My books won't be here for at least a week or so more. Never, never again ordering from ''Пингвините'', I swear.
・ I need to buy new shoes. Pony.♥
・ I bought the cutest earrings ever, I'll take pictures tomorrow.
・ I bought a ton of Disney characters stickers. I've been looking for some for ages.
・ Why do I hate answering the phone? D:
・ My birthday is in six days. Why do I not look seventeen at all? :(
・ I will update with something normal later.

・ I want a new sewing machine.
・ I want a new camera.
・ I want a ragdoll.
・ I want my creativity back.
・ I want to read a book.
・ I want to watch a movie.
・ I want to listen to something good.
・ I want to see some pretty art.
・ I want to see 2046.

I haven't updated in what feels like ages, but probably isn't.
What am I up to lately? Making huge plans on how I'm going to start an apple-milk factory and sell this same milk in cute cartons with creepy little kids drawn on them. Which should translate as ''pretty much nothing''. First term is over and I'm happy with my grades- I got straight A's. Maybe I'm smart, maybe I'm lucky, who knows and, most importantly, who cares. (:
After school I went with a few friends (more like a small crowd) to a coffee shop and had irish coffee.♥ I believe people should stop calling me a drunktard, because I am not and it irritates me. I myself hate it how kids my age get shitface drunk and pretend it's cool. I don't dislike alcochol, I think beer is tasty, for example. But I do not like getting drunk, so I don't do it. What's so cool in getting drunk when you feel good and then forgeting about your happy time? D: No, really? (whoever here likes getting drunk, DON'T GET MAD AT ME, that's just my opinion and something I felt I should rant about)
Also something's bothering me lately. I have awesome friends at school, I really do, both boys and girls. And I love them to death. But! I'm really worried about how everyone else (who isn't my friend), literally hates me. I'm not starting a stupid ''why do people hate those different from them'', because I'm not that different and I may actually know why everyone hates me. I'm not a good person, no, not really. I'm even bad to my friends sometimes, which I hate myself for. I sometimes embarass myself too much, so people can't really take me seriously. Which I also hate myself for. But!, again, I'm not that bad either. I like being nice to people, I like helping people out. Those people, eventhough they hate me (for God knows what reasons, as there might be a lot of reasons), use me, when I'm good to them. Then I somehow start wondering why they use me, when they hate me or why they hate me, if I actually do something nice to them, for a change.
Do my rants even make any sense? D: Idk, rather not. I'm really bad at pouring my feelings out, that's why my essay probably turned out being crap. I think I should stop bothering with what I'm obviously not good at. I should maybe start drawing again, since I have time once again. New term means I'll have school in the morning (from 7:30 to 13:30), instead of in the afternoon (from 13:30 to 19:30). I actually prefer having school in the afternoon, because I have more time to go out, to do stuff or whatever. Even if waking-up is a pain in the ass and I'm always pissy early in the morning. XD People wouldn't really appreciate that, I think.
And I like how my train of thought goes, because, wtf, it makes no sense even to me.
Tomorrow I'm picking up that blue hairdye I bought, eventhough I have no idea what to do with it. Highlighs, probably. Not my whole hair, deffinately, because I believe blue would look weird on me, especially with my style. If I was a raver, then, maybe, that'd be cool. But I'm not, so, no, thank you. I should also go get that library pass, I've been meaning to get for the past week or so. Libraries are so much love, really. You may find this weird, but no one actually studies in the school libraries here. Why, I have no idea, I still think it's great to study there, since it's quiet and there is no computer to keep you off your work. XD And the second is really a bad habit of mine, for my computer always distracts me. D:
Talking about libraries, I should also go see if my books came. I haven't read anything good in a while, so I really want a good book to keep me ocupied. I'm sick of only reading schoolbooks. Eventhough I don't really study a lot (...errr...), I'm still exhausted from school. Really exhausted. :(
*sighs*
I miss art. I miss inspiration. I miss creativity. I want to draw D: I want to make something. D: I want to sew myself a dress. D: I should finish my essay (oh, yes, even more writing, I'LL NEVER BE FREE!) and do something about it. I should also go watch the first episode of 今週､妻が浮気します, because I downloaded it and it's going to rot on my hd if I don't do it. I'm leaving you with some pictures, so you don't forget how I look. Goodbye for now~

( Strawberry days. )










POST ME PRETTY ART, SPAM ME WITH PRETTY PICTURES!

My mother got home today and said ''Hay, let's go spend my money!'' (okay, not literally D:).

That's the most boring evening I've had. D:

I DID IT! My japanese teacher really liked my essay, so it's all good now. I have to make a few corrections and learn it. Then it's time! TIME TO KICK ASS!
Uh, nevermind. My maths teacher is pretty insane. So I supposedly have to do a test tomorrow, because I didn't reach a 6 for the term (I have 6, 6, 4, 6, 6, 5, 6). I may not really understand maths, but I know 39:7=5.6, not 5.5. Seriously, why does that woman even bother with maths?



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I don't really feel like making a proper update today, sorry.

Today was such a random day D: It was really fun, yet it was seriously weird.
Nadya *coughs* met some japanese girl, みさき on the train and brought her to school. She (Nadya) nearly crashed my and my teacher's translating party, but who cares? The first few hours (like two or so?) I was pretending to be all awesome and irritated by Nadya (because, COME ON, who brings people to school with them only because they're japanese? D:), but finally gave in. みさき(21)'s seriously such a cute girl. She kept on telling me how ''カワイイでおしゃれ！'' I was. For some reason she seemed amazed by my dress. Cute, I tell you, cute!
She left me some little message (CUTE!♥) and puri in my notebook, also her email, so I'll probably mail her once she gets back in Japan. Which would be in the beginning of February.
Yet, I hate how I sound right now. Don't you think I sound like those exact same people I'm dissing? The ones who think japanese people are cool, just because they're japanese. Lame. Uh, nevermind.
I'm currently dying to watch the 山吹ミュ or chat or listen to music, yet I have to translate. My class teacher helped me greatly with my essay and I hope everything's okay now. Wish me luck for tomorrow, okay? Tomorrow was the deadline and also the day the big decision #1 is going to be made, they'll decide who's going on 弁論大会 and who's not. WISH ME LUCK!
I also have to finish my essay for 河合先生's class. I've really been procrastinating those last few days D: It's half written down in japanese, half still in bulgarian. I have to do it today. Yet, I'm hungry. And as I said, want to chat, listen to music or watch the 山吹ミュ again. >> Why, life, why? D: I'll go all sadface on you.
I want cake. I want pizza. I want cake and pizza.
And now I'm leaving you with some random pictures (like, two? XD) and going studying. FUN TIMES WITH THE DICTIONARY!♥

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